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Blue and Yellow Polka Dot Ailment
I have coined a new term, the Blue and Yellow Polka Dot ailment, to replace a much-tarnished term. I recently wrote to a friend about this ailment and spelled it incorrectly -- this is due to the fact that I have never once written the tainted word prior to this occasion.
Eight years ago, I fell desperately in love with a man who I now call my husband. On our second eve of sex, I contracted Herpes. He gave me fair warning moments prior to the official act. This type of action is likely the second most powerful reason that the disease spreads, the first being that the carrier neglects to inform the non-carrier at all.
Before meeting my husband-to-be, I endured limited sexual experience. At a young age, I abandoned my sexuality and spent almost five years in a state of anorexia. I spent the next five years recovering my sexuality, doing a little dating and even a brief relationship here and there. After this period, I met the man that altered my sexuality forever.
After contracting the Blue and Yellow Polka Dot ailment, I lost my faith. With a mere handful of sexual experiences in my back pocket, the new reality of Herpes didn't seem fair. It didn't even appear like a grand lesson from the Universe. I asked myself, "Shouldn't the Universe be helping me recover my sexuality instead of placing a new catastrophic -- and lifelong -- mark on it?"
I may still be with my husband because I am unwilling to face rejection from future lovers if we do part paths. This is a heavy price to pay; our marriage is waning at the roots. Yet, because I am honestly considering a division, I wrote that letter to a friend of late. This is also the reason why I am writing this anonymous article.
For all of you who do not have the Blue and Yellow Polka Dot ailment, be careful; it beckons at your heels for life. For all of you who do have the Blue and Yellow Polka Dot ailment, do not tell your lover moments prior to lovemaking; tell him or her in a safe place that offers your partner time and space to consider the risks.
For all of you who declare, "So, what? You've got Herpes. It's not life threatening like AIDS," please -- and quietly -- bow your head and ask for forgiveness. There is little upside to contracting this ailment.
A sprinkle of hope does exist for women who have not yet been exposed to Herpes. Ask your doctor about this new preventative treatment today. For all of us carriers, there is a singular glimmer to note: A partner who truly loves your being will accept your ailment. The partners who lack honest love, will fall to the wayside in an instant.
For obvious reasons, I have chosen to keep my name private in regards to this article. I am, however, a spiritual writer and publish a variety of articles online.
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