Perhaps you may have heard of the book Conversations With God by Neal Donald Walsh?

Well just recently I picked it up to read. I can't believe I never read this book when it first came out. The part I turned to, by just opening to a page in the book, was about Neal asking God about being on the spiritual path for 20 years and still struggling to survive. And I thought, "well this could be me." His questions were my questions still and very appropo. The conversation God was having was about what it means to be Self Realized.

I know that this term 'Self Realization' has been used for many years by those on a spiritual path. And those of us who have committed ourselves to that path have often believed that to be Self Realized would feel different than the way we ordinarily feel. I know that I didn’t know exactly what it would be like but I thought I had had tastes of it, during my meditation or even for days I would feel fully present and at peace inside, calm and still. But what God was telling Neal was that Self Realization is staying in the space of God each moment. That is to say that we re-identify again and again with who we really are rather than with the illusion of who we think we are in the midst of our story.

It used to be thought that when a person ‘woke up’ he/she would have a sudden awakening of some sort, a kundalini awakening, or the mind would suddenly just stop and silence would be all that was felt. This is not the case for those of us who have been the spiritual seekers of our generation. Today Self Realization is for the masses. It involves a consistent day-to-day, moment-to-moment remembrance of who you, me, we are. Then one moment becomes the next and the tnext until we notice that we arein the silence and it is in us. Today, we are here to evolve into Homo Spiritus and to become Homo Universalis, which is to live as spiritual beings in a human form, fully present and feeling our connection and to each other. That means awakening in each moment to our divinity and meeting each situation from that space, that God consciousness.

I know for myself that I have often thought that when I really awakened to my full God Self I would feel suddenly peaceful all the time or loving all the time. That I too would experience a sense of stillness all the time. That is not it. God realization is realizing your true identity each moment, remembering I AM, I AM, I AM. What this means is that we are already programmed to be God, to create as God creates, to love as God loves, to be all the qualities that God I AM is.

No big bang for us or sudden shift in our awareness. It is a moment-to-moment process of our remembering who we are, in the midst of being physical, dealing with physical things like paying the bills or raising children or working on our careers. Self Realization is the process of realizing that you, me, we are the image and likeness of God over and over again in this human form and living as that, being that regardless of our circumstances. Our commitment to that is what carries us through the really difficult times that may arise in any moment. This is our commitment to remember who we are no matter what shows up. Even if we forget for awhile, we get back on track and tune in to that undeniable fact that we are living God/Goddess beings and this is our time to show up as that.

I am no different than anyone else. I am writing these words first for myself and to myself. Of course I hope that anyone who reads them will benefit from them in some way. But I write really to myself. I need to hear God speaking to me the same way God spoke to Neal. It is a never-ending journey, this business of awakening, and it is quite a ride.

Author's Bio: 

Luminessa Enjara writes for the Examiner.com, E-zine Articles and her own blogs. She is the founder of the School of Womyn's Mysteries, a mystery school that explores the power and mystery of a woman's body. She is also a gifted Akashic Record reader/consultant, a Spiritual Counselor and Life Coach and offers consultations by phone as well as on-going support programs. Luminessa is a dynamic and inspirational speaker, a teacher and an amazing guide for self-awareness and transformation.