Quirky Qabalist

I'm writing a book.  Not here, right now and you probably don't need to know this at all, but there, I've said it.  The book I am writing is about my experience of studying the Qabala, which I started actively pursuing a year ago.  It's not a short term thing - my teacher has been studying for 20 years and still maintains she has only scratched the surface, which does panic me slightly.  But what it means is that, in the grand scheme of things, I'm still a newcomer, a beginner.

When I started, I did so as an exercise for myself - it was to be an account of my experience up until this point, and then I would continue it beyond.  I started absolutely convinced that a) it would be too personal for anyone to read and b) that as it was my life, it would be of little interest to anyone else.  While writing it I realised that there are many people who write about themselves who I personally don't have any interest in whatsoever - but someone does.  For someone, that story hits a note and tells them something that they needed to hear.  Who am I to say whether my story will do the same for someone else? I'm not entirely sure I've got it in me to be inspirational, but stranger things have happened.

Anyway, back to the book.  Originally, I was just going to do a blog.  Then I started writing.  And at thirty-something pages, I had just got to the point in my life where I was ready to start getting interested in the Qabala and what it was all about.  Thirty pages. Now bear in mind I was on an iPhone (other smartphones are available) using their virtual keyboard, on a train surrounded by people who had various coughs, colds and odour issues.  The typos were numerous, the smart text kept randomly changing the words and my typing speed was somewhere between 1-2 words per minute.  I just put my head down and typed whatever came to mind about what I remembered from growing up.  After two weeks of this very painful operation - and numerous occasions of jumping off trains as they were about to leave for the return trip - I decided to transfer it to my PC.  At this point, I realised just how much I had done.  And as fascinating as it was and as complex as some blogs are, I wouldn't expect anyone to read that much from a screen and get any real sense out of it.

So, I re-evaluated.  I realised that for some people, my story - the whole story - would be wonderful.  But for others, maybe they didn't need to know quite so much about me to get something positive from my experiences that might just jolt them into having some of their own.  Hence this blog.  I thought that if I could put my musings, ponderings and thoughts on here, it might just stimulate some comments, get other people thinking about the same things and wonder what it is all about for themselves.

I want to be clear on one point.  I'm not an expert in this.  I am still very much a learner - the L plates are not going to come off for a fair few years yet.  But what if people are put off looking any deeper into their spirituality because they also think that you can't get anything useful out of it without joining some commune, or dedicating decades to it?  If it is that difficult, you would run a mile.  I would.   But maybe, if there is someone, like me, who is prepared to put their head above the parapet and show others the journey that they are taking and that it isn't so scary, or difficult ... then maybe, just maybe, I can get someone else thinking that this is something that can benefit them too.

That is my thinking, anyway.  I hope that you read this account and see some parallels with your own life.  You see how the Qabala work I do helps me in my day to day life and you see a way it can help you too.  Even if this doesn't happen, I hope you will enjoy the ramblings of someone on a spiritual journey but who has brought no flashlight, no map and only one chocolate bar.

Enjoy.

Please feel free to contact me for comments, questions and discussions.  I'm happy to talk with anyone and everyone - I bet you'd never guess that :-)

Please Email: Quirky@TheQuirkyQabalist.com