A Letter of Disclosure to My Future Partner

Dear Future Partner,

There are some things you should know about me right now before we get involved. It’s only fair to apprise you of the situation and so I am coming to you with full disclosure; requesting that you read ALL the fine print listed below to ensure you are aware of what I am.

I am broken. I’ve been shattered into so many pieces that sometimes I think I’ll never be able to truly put myself back together again. I have pieces that used to feel light but are now feeling heavy. I know they don’t fit any more but I’m afraid if I take them out, it will cause me to crumble. There are some pieces in the wrong places. At times, I question whether I picked up the right pieces in the first place because I didn’t have a good idea of what the picture of me looked like.

I recognize I’ve been working on this for a really, really long time. I understand that I’m always going to be working on myself; becoming more and more of the picture of who I am so that my essence will shine and glow. I want you to see the picture of me. I want you to help me find the right pieces and put them in the right places. I realize I don’t want to do this by myself any longer. I have made the decision to ask you to help me pick up the pieces; to determine which ones are relevant, which ones can be thrown away and where completely new pieces are needed to fill the gaps.

I want you to know that I am scared. I feel vulnerable. I am hesitant. I’m not hesitating because of you. I am hesitating because of me.

The scary thing is that I have to allow you to see me in my brokenness, so you can help me decide where the pieces go. The other scary thing is that I have to trust myself enough so that I can trust you so we can create new pieces I need to fill my voids. Those empty places where I know there is something missing but I’m not sure what it is or how to fill it. I know I don’t want to do it by myself any longer.

And, as a note of caution, there are pieces that have sharp edges. I have a feeling that I’ve placed them there as a coping mechanism even though that wasn’t my intention. It’s also not my intention to hurt you so I have to warn you in advance that you may have the potential to become injured. Hopefully, by telling you all of this up front, it will give some insight and information into the situation and help you make a decision. A decision I hope is based on your heart and the connection and feelings we have when we are together.

You have the ability to see me when I can’t see myself. You have the ability to see the passion I have for helping others. I’m still learning to be that passionate about helping myself and I’m asking you to help me build that new picture of myself.

If you decide you are willing to help me with this project and process and I hesitate, I would appreciate you just allowing me to be and be there for me. You don’t have to do anything except hold me when I cry and not let me go. I don’t want you to let me go no matter what I say or do...please don’t let me go. Please decide to invest in me and help me put my broken pieces back together so we can build a new picture for ourselves. This is my heart’s desire.

Looking forward to your response,
Amy

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