“It really doesn't matter if the person who hurt you deserves to be forgiven. Forgiveness is a gift you give yourself. You have things to do and you want to move on and not waste your precious "nows" remembering how you were a victim of the past.”
-- Dean Fraser

"Love is an act of endless forgiveness, a tender look which becomes a habit."
-- Peter Ustinov

"Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos into order, confusion into clarity.... It turns problems into gifts, failures into success, the unexpected into perfect timing, and mistakes into important events. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today and creates a vision for tomorrow."
-- Melodie Beattie

"We look backward too much and we look forward too much; thus we miss the only eternity of which we can be absolutely sure - the eternal present, for it is always now."
-- William Phelps

“Life without a purpose is a languid, drifting thing; every day we ought to review our purpose, saying to ourselves, 'This day let me make a sound beginning'.”
-- Thomas Kempis

“Happiness is the only good. The time to be happy is now. The place to be happy is here. The way to be happy is to make others so.”
-- Robert G. Ingersoll

“The foolish man seeks happiness in the distance, the wise grows it under his feet.”
-- J. Robert Oppenheimer

“Within you right now is the power to do things you never dreamed possible. This power becomes available to you just as soon as you can change your beliefs."
 -- Dr. Maxwell Maltz

"You can conquer almost any fear if you will only make up your mind to do so. For remember, fear doesn't exist anywhere except in the mind."
-- Dale Carnegie

"The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly."
-- Buddha

"Forgiveness is the key that unlocks the door of resentment and the handcuffs of hate. It is a power that breaks the chains of bitterness and the shackles of selfishness."
-- William Arthur Ward

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate; our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, 'who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? 'Actually who are you NOT to be?
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that others won't feel unsure around you.
As we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
-- Marianne Williamson

“Nobody can make you feel inferior without your permission.”
-- Eleanor Roosevelt

"The measure of love you can give in any moment measures your freedom. The measure of love you demand or expect measures your slavery."
-- Author unknown

"I am not what happened to me; I am what I choose to become."
 -- Carl Jung

                                      Excerpt from Lea's book "Making the Breast of It"

                                                            Silent Messenger

“Trusting your intuition means tuning in as deeply as you can to the energy you feel, following that energy moment to moment, trusting that it will lead you where you want to go and bring you everything you desire.”
— Shakti Gawain

As I sat in a lounge chair outside a house on the top of a mountain overlooking the Pacific Ocean, breezes whispered on my skin. I was surrounded by a riot of flowers: deep red roses, yellow lilies, pink cherry blossoms, orange birds of paradise, sunflowers, carnations, tulips, daisies, daffodils, and gardenias. The scent of a nearby avocado orchard drifted toward my nose.

On this sunny summer afternoon, I was on a Spiritual Quest at a retreat center in the small town of Montecito near Santa Barbara, California.

Although I may have looked lazy sitting in my lounge chair, I was actively meditating, practicing spiritual exercises to shed excess baggage and eliminate beliefs that didn’t serve me anymore. I wanted to reach a state of clarity.

Normally, when I did spiritual exercises, I enjoyed a state of euphoria, my mind clear, my spirit light; nothing bothered me. Yet, as I soaked in this natural beauty, usually so restorative, I felt a dark cloud covering me. A negative and oppressive vibration was clinging to my body, mostly on my left side. I looked around but couldn’t see anything. I felt strange.

In an attempt to rid myself of this unsettling feeling, I gestured to push this vibration away. “Get away from me! Get away,” I said out loud for no one but the flowers to hear.

The dark cloud persistently enveloped me. How could I attract this negative vibration on such a beautiful day in these magnificent surroundings? It was perplexing. I attempted to ignore the weird feeling and continued my spiritual exercises, but I couldn’t concentrate. Like a tongue probing a painful tooth, my mind kept wandering back to the vibration.

A half-hour later–still unable to explain this strange experience–I felt tingling on the upper part of my left breast. Was my Higher Self trying to tell me something? If so, what?

Next, I tried “discreation,” a way to uncreate unwanted or undesirable feelings that don’t serve me anymore. The discreation process involves three steps.

1. I concentrate on a particular image of anger or
    sadness from my past that still disturbs me. I
    experience deep inside how that image feels
    from every angle. I stay with that image until I
    reach its edges.

2. I let the image dissolve.
 
3. I disassociate or disconnect from that image.

After taking these three steps, the image just disappears, but this time, the discreation process I had always relied on didn’t work. I still couldn’t concentrate.

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