Notes to Myself

I was speaking with my dear friend about his desire of letting go. I wanted to know what he was letting go of. All of it he said. I wanted a list. In fact, I whipped out my journal and made a list of everything I wanted to let go of. My friend replied I am letting go of the energy of all the things I am carrying. He told me I was being too analytical about it, rather than just experiencing it. Yes, that is my Aquarian nature, think, analyze, think, analyze.

I was perplexed, if I was carrying around a heavy bag of something I could just set it down...or drop it...or fling it as far as I could, however, I am not carrying a physical object so I wasn't sure of how to let go of what I'm carrying. I spent the week trying to figure out how to let go. In the process I journaled about everything that I need to let go of. I filled over 30 pages in my journal. I kid you not.

I stared in awe at the filled pages of words I had written. My story. Everything I had experienced, shaping me into the person I am today. I saw the weight of the pages that lay before me and I knew that I had found my tangible evidence of what I wanted to let go of. I spent a few hours each night writing and then I spent much time in silence assimilating what I wrote. I didn't review what I had written because I know my story by heart. I just allowed the energy of everything that occurred in my life that shaped me into becoming who I am today to penetrate my being.

Then, out of nowhere, while I was blow drying my hair, I got it. The energy of what I really wanted to let go of came to me. I realized this is my pattern and I'll be darned if I repeat it! In that moment, in front of the mirror, I stated to the Universe my intentions. I didn't say it once, I said it many times, in various ways. I whipped out my journal and I wrote it down also! You know, we Aquarians like to put a little flair into things!

I felt flooded with relief. The weight of what I had been carrying had been released. I had dropped the baggage. I realized there is, in fact, a language of letting go. It is an unspoken language. It doesn't reveal itself in words, or ideas. It is the awareness that we what we are carrying is something that we no longer wish to be burdened with. I think once we have awareness and we follow it up with the willingness to let go that the process begins.

The language of letting go is releasing the energy of what we are carrying within us. We form attachments to "Our Story". We identify with who or what we think we are or were. We form our patterns around behaviors we choose not to look at or change. Letting go means we are willing to change and metamorphosis into the butterfly. The butterfly being freedom from what no longer serves us.

By letting go we make space within us for the possibilities of the unknown. Many of us fear the unknown and would rather stick with what is familiar. Without taking a risk by letting go of the baggage we are carrying, we aren't leaving space to welcome in all the new and wonderful potentials. In this moment we are creating the possibilities.

I am realizing that the dynamics in my family were that it was not safe to show emotions or express my feelings. I learned how to suppress my feelings and minimize what I was experiencing. I am seeing when we hold in our feelings we are blocking the energy of the emotion. I'm not saying we need to hold onto or wallow in it. I feel we need to be present in the moment of the feeling and actually feel it.

When we block our feelings they become buried and lodged in our energetic bodies. Then, when we are ready to release the feelings, it is much more difficult because we never experienced them at the time of the occurrence. It is challenging to identify something we've never allowed ourselves to feel. It causes a mind-body disassociation. I am realizing that in order to let go we need to feel it first, take from the experience what was necessary and then move on.

Through my journaling process I can see how much of my life I detached from my emotions. How can you release something that you are not even connected to? Detachment further distances you from letting go. By gaining the awareness through the experiences, feeling the emotions and identifying where in the body the energy of it resides, aids in making it concrete. It gives you the tangible "bag" that you can set down, drop like a ton of bricks or just plain fling. It can be a very freeing experience.

Our planet is going through a major upheaval, cleansing and realignment process. Everything is changing and transforming. We can help the process by allowing ourselves to transmute the old and make space for the new. We may let go of the energy of what no longer serves us and make space for the unlimited possibilities of what we can create.

It's time we let go of expectations, and outcomes, for really what is meant for us is a thousand times better than the limited things we would accept. Letting go is releasing the old fears and patterns. When we are afraid of accepting the gifts presented to us, we are rejecting the potential. If we keep trying to do things the old way, we are not giving ourselves an opportunity to grow and change.

The language of letting go is releasing the energies of the old. The language of letting go is about giving ourselves permission to experience and express our feelings. The language of letting go is being present in the moment to receive all the wonderful opportunities that life is bringing to us. We are the butterflies that have the power to set ourselves free.

Prayer: The Language of Letting Go
Infinite One,

I accept the blessings of love in my life. I accept myself the way I am. I am good enough. I am whole.

I release the energy of my limits, for I see myself as limitless. I want to experience and feel all there is to experience. I want to fly free, unencumbered by previous limitations.

When opportunity calls, show me how to release the fears of taking a chance. I don't want to hold myself back. I'll risk getting hurt if it means I might have a greater chance of experiencing love and happiness.

I let go of the past and embrace the now. I am light as a feather, as my fears and limiting beliefs are removed. My wings unfurl as I am ready to take flight and soar to new heights.

Thank you for your ever abiding presence. I am so grateful.

And so it is.


Author's Bio: 

Stefanie Miller, is a teacher, energy healer, spiritual counselor and an intuitive, channeled writer. She holds a Bachelor’s degree in Education and has taught elementary school for over 16 years. Stefanie has been assisting individuals on their spiritual path since 1998. Her gentle, positive, and loving guidance, empowers individuals to find inner awareness and clarity by facilitating private sessions, workshops and through her channeled writing.

She guides individuals in achieving self mastery by connecting with their Higher Self and Source through heart centered healing.

Stefanie is very connected to nature and animals. She is a pure channel for loving guidance coming directly from Source. Her intuitive guidance comes through the Angelic and Fairy realms, including the Archangels, and has an exceptionally close bond with Archangel Michael. She works with the Ascended Masters, including but not limited to Tobias, Kuthumi, Yeshua, Metatron, Saint Germain and the Angels of the Violet Flame.

Stefanie is a Priestess Initiate in the School of the Sacred Rose; Priestess Training of the Light.
She connects with the Goddess energy, especially connecting with Mother Mary, Mary Magdalene, Isis, Kuan Yin, Mother Gaia, and Kali.

Stefanie facilitates in person and long distance healing, clearing and
balancing sessions which include spiritual guidance, intuitive counseling, energy clearing, etheric cord cutting, chakra balancing, dream interpretation, angel card reading, Color of Angels attunement, and Shamballa & Usui Reiki attunement.

Stefanie is certified and trained in Soul Focused Healing, Usui & Shamballa Multidimensional Reiki, Angel Therapy through Doreen Virtue and Emotional Freedom Technique. Stefanie works with the essential oils, Bach Flower
Essences and crystals. Her lineage dates back to Lemurian times. Stefanie has been a
long time student of Kryon, the Crimson Circle (Tobias), Marianne Williamson and Louise Hay.

She has done extensive research on the topic of Indigo and Crystal Children.
Stefanie facilitates workshops, private sessions and articles to assist the parents of Indigo/Crystal Children by introducing unique strategies and teaching methods based on spiritual, educational, and behavioral perspectives.
Stefanie's gentle and compassionate nature supports both parents and children along their sacred path.