Notes to Myself

This year totally sucked for me. Okay, that's not a very spiritual way of defining things. So much for the sarcasm….I'll try again. This has been a year rich in opportunity to grow in strength and wisdom, through various challenging situations. I have come to some major awareness regarding old patterns that no longer serve me, and was able to clear out a lot of emotional and mental baggage that I was carrying, disengaging from some old patterns. Better put?

It's been a really intense year doing such deep soul work. Many of us have had this blessing of letting go of the old and renegotiating what we really want and need in our lives, what we want to bring into our future. Our entire planet has been given this opportunity and we really need to prioritize what’s important to us and figure out the value of things. Not just monetarily, although that seems to be what the focus has been placed on. Instead, deciding on the value (emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually) of what we want (not what we thought we needed) and what is it really costing us to overextend ourselves in this way. Is the stress and anxiety really worth it??!!

My intent was to become a much more conscious and aware person. Not only in my choices but how my actions and behavior affects another. It has been full of beautiful and sometimes painful lessons. When we really see how we are so interconnected and the power we wield in each other's lives it can seem like such a major responsibility. It is. Our level of conscious awareness has the possibility of helping another or harming them (and ourselves). Being mindful of what we are doing and being truly present in the moment can assist us in doing things that are in alignment with what we want to create and prevent us from being detached and unavailable.

Many of us are feeling a sense of lack in one form or another. We feel that we don't have "enough" resources. We fear that there is not enough money, food, jobs, resources, or love to meet all of our needs and for the needs of those on this planet. When we are in this space of not feeling fulfilled or feeling that our needs are not being met we haphazardly reach out and try to fill the empty spaces with "stuff". We create diversions that take us out of the present moment. We all consciously and unconsciously create these diversions in order to not feel the fear, anxiety or loneliness that we are experiencing.

Many common ways we detach from the present moment is through excessive television watching or computer surfing, spending time on the telephone, overworking, shopping, and enmeshment in relationships or keeping ourselves overly busy. When we are preoccupied we can bury our thoughts and feelings and not have to feel or face them.

Another way we create diversions as a method of denial and avoidance is by being in co-dependent relationships where we are always involved with what someone else is doing or feeling. Getting overly involved in someone else's problems and needs takes the focus off of us and puts the spotlight onto someone else. We can say we are doing it to help, but in reality we are just trying to rescue and fix someone else rather than focusing on ourselves.

We may also take on additional responsibilities, which keeps us extra busy with things that go beyond the limits we are capable of handling. Before we take on extra stuff, we need to ask ourselves if we have the resources to do so. Resources may include money, time, prior obligations and the stamina to handle it (emotionally/physically). There are times we jump in without thinking it through and create a situation that is beyond our capabilities. We then spend time trying to juggle more than we can handle, subsequently trying fix the mess we made or deal with exhaustion and frustration because we have more going on than we can deal with.

If we could just sit with the uneasiness for a little while and accept the present moment as it is, we could allow things to unfold through the grace of God. We need to allow ourselves to feel satisfied with what have. To appreciate what we do have and realize that what we have is enough. Our needs are being met in the present moment. Whatever unfulfillment we are experiencing is only momentary. Everything is in a constant state of change. If this moment isn't exactly the way we want it to be, we need to accept as is, because it is what the Universe gave to us, for it is what we need. It's not going to last forever for everything is in a constant state of change. Accepting this moment is all we really have. When we can see through the eyes that are content with the blessings given to us, we will be ready for what is to come.

We are constantly struggling with allowing things to be. We think we can try to control things, which is an illusion, of course. If we can take the path of least resistance and go with the flow things can manifest with ease and grace. If you pursue a path and it is fraught with difficulties, hold ups, and blocks, then perhaps it is not the route meant for the time being.

By uncomplicating our lives, by letting go of what doesn't serve us, refusing to take on more than we are capable of handling, and not allowing ourselves to get preoccupied with another person's stuff we can focus on living our lives with ease and grace. Ease and grace is living a life where we know that our wants and needs are provided for by Source and that as we go with the flow, accepting the present moment and allowing things to be what they are, that things will naturally unfold for our highest and greatest good. Gracefully living a life that is blessed with ease, because we don't try to complicate things with our will.

Once we are aware of the times we are creating diversions to avoid and deny the present moment we can take back our power by disengaging from these behaviors and choose ease and grace instead.


Sweet Spirit, Source, God/Goddess,

I accept the present moment with ease and grace. I am a source for infinite abundance. I am so grateful for the many blessings I receive. I know we are all going through such major changes and adjustments, rather than denying and avoiding what is happening, I instead take the opportunity to deeply and completely love and accept myself. I trust all is well and as it is meant to be.

And so it is.


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Author's Bio: 

Stefanie Miller is a teacher, energy healer, spiritual counselor and an intuitive channeled writer. She holds a Bachelor's degree in Education and has taught elementary school for over 16 years. Stefanie has been assisting individuals on their spiritual path since 1998. Facilitating private healing sessions, workshops and through her channeled writing, Stefanie guides individuals toward achieving self mastery by connecting with their Higher Self and Source through a heart centered focus.