Notes to Myself

I report to you from within the void. I've been residing here since perhaps June or so. It has been a very sacred space but outgoing communication has been stunted. I can't seem to string a group of words together to form a sentence or complete a thought, so please bear with me as I try to describe the energy of late.

The Full Moon effects were extremely powerful, and thus since, things have been illuminated quite well. Its as if a flashlight has been beamed into the dark recesses of our lives, thoughts and feelings. You can run, but you cannot hide! What was hidden in relationships or aspects of ourselves came out in full view with the rays of illumination shining brightly on them. Things that we lacked clarity about are finally coming to the surface to be seen fully for what they are and it is finally an ah ha moment! If you haven't had that moment yet, be ready for it is on its way!

While in this void we're being slowed down from so much outward action that these aspects sure can be seen and felt for what they are, and can ultimately be dealt with once and for all. The intensity of our feelings is magnified and our highs are very high and our lows are very low. Once we let go of what we've been holding onto we are finally able to see things for what they really are, and these emotions will neutralize and subside.

Awareness is key. Knowing what belongs to us, and what belongs to someone else. Not taking responsibility for someone else's stuff and dealing with our own. I have found lately that as I try to explain what's going on with me or how I'm feeling various people have attempted to cut me off mid sentence to tell me what I'm thinking and feeling or will try to put their emotions onto it or else will want to take away the feeling from me somehow. I have to realize, hey wait a minute, that is or is not mine, and that's theirs. Having healthy boundaries in relationships is a good thing.

The pathway to intimacy is being able to hold the space for someone else. Being the witness to their lives and seeing them in compassion, but, not trying to fix, save, or rescue. If someone needs help that's one thing but jumping in and trying to do it for them or give the answers or take away their pain is taking away their power and our own as well.

It's about putting the illumination where it belongs. We need to train the light on ourselves. We can help others by really "seeing" them. Listening when they need to talk. Perhaps giving them a "that really stinks" "I'm really happy for you" or "I hear ya" now and again. Jumping in with the solution is just pure co-dependency and often times its not really what the person is wanting, needing or asking for. They just want to be able to vent and be heard. It's more about releasing the pent up emotions. Ultimately we have our own answers and solutions. It comes from within. No one can tell us what we need, since we hold the answers inside of us. Any entanglements we find ourselves in, in our relationships, need to be untangled. It is time for each of us to be sovereign beings.

We're nestled in this space of trying to make sense of which way is up and which way is down. I have confidence we'll figure it out. We need to be in our power and conscious of the divine flow. The awareness's are coming fast and furious at this time and we have to buckle our seat belts as things and situations surface and need to be handled. We are dropping density as we clear out our issues, making us lighter and free.

All we really want is to be really seen by another. We have lived within the veils of unconsciousness for far too long. As our awareness has shifted, our relationships have as well. We need to be seen for who we are and treated with love, respect and kindness.

Intimacy is not necessarily about sex or romance. It's about sharing space and time with someone else and creating a safe, sacred place where we can express who we are without fear of judgment or criticism. There is nothing like being with someone and not having to maintain constant chatter. More, is often said, in the quiet moments than words can ever express. It's nice to have that level of comfort with another and within ourselves. It is a pure level of peace.

The vulnerability we are feeling now is a good thing. It makes us more pliable and open. It gives us the room to be ourselves and makes way for us too choose what we want to let into our lives at this time.

The pathway to intimacy is knowing ourselves inside and out. To love ourselves unconditionally. When we know who we are, we have the ability to see others for who they are. In this way we can share sacred space without limitation.

Ultimately we are the expression of pure love.



Guide me in the pathway to having intimate relationships with myself and others. I want all of my relationships to be authentic. I open my heart to hold the space of genuine compassion, understanding and kindness with those I care for. I see with new eyes and hear with new ears. May the quiet moments be filled with your presence and love.

And so it is.


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Author's Bio: 

Stefanie Miller is a teacher, energy healer, spiritual counselor and an intuitive channeled writer. She holds a Bachelor's degree in Education and has taught elementary school for over 16 years. Stefanie has been assisting individuals on their spiritual path since 1998. Facilitating private healing sessions, workshops and through her channeled writing, Stefanie guides individuals toward achieving self mastery by connecting with their Higher Self and Source through a heart centered focus.