Marriage Was Made For People - People Were Not Made For Marriage.
Be glad we don't live in a place where marriages are arranged or we are restricted to certain partners like a religious cult. Been there, done that. The best advice you can ever gave yourself was to discard any lingering baggage from childhood and get to know yourself really well before you settle down into a relationship. There is nothing worse than sacrificing yourself to an institution that you don't even know if you believe in yet because you don't know your self at all.